Something I’m working on lately is just focusing on doing the next right thing. Sometimes I get stuck in the mode that I want someone to notice what I do.
I run around in my head that I hope they know I did that, or whatever it is. But in reality none of it matters. Doing the next right thing is enough. Maybe you can call it Karma. Doing the next right thing is an easy rule of thumb.
It’s easy to get caught up in the notion that if no one sees it, it doesn’t matter. But you see it. And isn’t what we think of ourselves all that really matters? And if Karma is a thing, it will pay off.
The life you live, the choices you make, do make the person you are. Are you pleasant? Are you happy? Are you kind and thoughtful? Are you a good friend? All that matters is the next right thing.
Sure you’ve messed up. I know I have. I’ve been selfish and unpleasant. I’ve made bad choices and hurt people. But the next right thing is always before you. It gets easier to not worry about the past when you focus on the next right thing. And you know what? All those next right things add up to feeling good about who you are and where you are headed. Keep moving forward and find that next right thing and you won’t be disappointed.
I went to yoga this morning. I feel better. It’s been awhile since I’ve made a class, it truly is a gift.
Last night I wanted to drink. Drink away the feelings and the pain. Find something to numb up. But after yoga this morning, I am starting to feel okay. The pain can restore, heal. The only way through it is to feel it. Give myself to it and work through it. I never want to go this long without yoga again. I want to let that heat heal my hurts. Fighting from one moment to the next through the pain.
Tomorrow I teach Hatha. I’m so looking forward to giving the gift of healing yoga through all of the training, studying. And watch it work in the students. I hope I never forget. This practice can and will change your life.
I will do yoga daily. My practice has been so needed but pushed aside for my despair. I need to quiet the mind and give it a chance to listen. Be an instrument of peace. Today, I am at peace.
The nights for me have been pretty good. Tonight the best so far.
I used my creative side to make a little ocean plate. I had a goal setting session. Both keeping me busy and motivated thanks to my amazing friends.
The fog is beginning to lift and I see more and more light. I’m so grateful to have some really close friends and family that has been checking up on me.
There can’t be enough said about the support I’ve received. I’ve been kept very busy by my friends, my business.
But these nights, easier than mornings but still hard. The emptiness is always there. Like my heart has been ripped out of my chest and there’s just an empty black hole. As much as I fill the time, the empty feeling remains where ever I go, whatever I do.
The longing for what I can’t change. The guilt and ache of a mistake I can’t take back.
But I go to bed another night, just hoping to wake up the next day and continue.
A few years ago on this day, my family lost a great man. My grandfather was amazing. His love for his God, his wife and family leaves us with a picture of true love that all of those in our family carry into all our relationships. So just a minute to remember the life of my Grandpa. 💕
I’m reading the book Hell-Bent by Benjamin Lore. Recommended by my friend, Alexis. It’s basically one guy’s look into Bikram training. So I take it with a grain of salt.
That being said, it’s very interesting. A little salacious but a good read.
One of my favorite Bikram lines that I feel confident that he says because now I’ve heard it from two different sources. It’s “It never gets any easier (if you are doing it right.)”
This refers to the Bikram 26 Beginner Yoga class, frequently called Hatha.
It is such a great reminded how important that base practice is and that there is always farther to take a posture. And if you are doing it right, it never gets easier.
Many people when they are ready to advance, move to more Power or Fusion type classes. I encourage you to not give up Hatha, push yourself in these basic postures. Learn more about what I mean in a posture clinic where a teacher has the ability to show you the next step in a stuck too easy posture.
For me, I’m not there yet. You can be a beginner for 10 years. For me, it’ll probably be 15. But either way, until I cal hold standing forehead to knee for a full minute, I’ll be content in the beginning class. Working the basics, appreciating the benefits.