Nature and yoga

Tonight I practiced on the deck, looking at the most beautiful view. I thought about listening to music. But there was something lovely in the sounds of the outdoors.

I listened to the birds singing to my flows. I felt the gentle wind that cooled me right when I needed it. I balanced finding a focal point on the hills. I looked up at the half moon starting to make it’s way into the blue sky. 

My body moved with grace. I had more focus and balance than I have ever had. I connected my soul with the beauty around me. Something very special in this practice moved me. Meet the outdoors around you and you’ll be at peace.


Yoga Family

I had surgery this Friday.  That being said, I tried to be at Teacher Training as much as possible.  Why?  It’s my yoga family. In my town!  I haven’t been to a training here in Wenatchee but it is so cool to have so many people that I truly adore coming to my home studio.  They have become a new family, my yoga family.

I feel about them like I do my “California Cousins.”  When they come to town, life as we know it stops.  You make sacrifices, you do what it takes to spend every second you can with them.

Also, they care for me.  I have people who really really care.  They don’t fake it, they don’t have to.  They don’t judge me or question it.  They are all completely real and completely real in their love and kindness.  They don’t have to try, they just do.  There is nothing like the relationship I have with my yoga family.  Love and respect.  Mutual understanding.  Unconditional acceptance.  If you don’t have a yoga family, you should.  And mine is pretty darn amazing.

I couldn’t make the hike yesterday, but I love these people.  Beautiful.  13411828_10100896627144203_772470144837506325_o

Shoulder Injury and Friends

Sometimes I can be a bit careless.  Example I touched on briefly but I tried to show off for family doing a headstand and was wearing socks at first and slipped, injuring my left shoulder.  I hate being “that girl” who always is hurt in someway or another.  Trust me, I don’t want to be that girl.  But somehow that is what my life has become, a medical mystery I like to say.

So I slipped into a chair on my left shoulder.  Today I went in to find out what is going on since it hasn’t gotten any better.  Bonus, I am learning all my shoulder parts.  (Quick apology to Kyra – I said I rather have a shoulder injury because so many knee and ankle injuries have kept me down.  FYI, shoulder isn’t better.  It hurts no matter what I do, even typing this gives me pain. So Kyra – you are a trooper! and I was just being dumb)  The doctor today told me I bruised my bones and muscles specifically injuring the Supraspinatus and the Subcapularis.  And man do they hurt.  I can’t reach behind me at all, I don’t know why I didn’t share it at first.  I just hope that it goes away and is nothing serious but here I am, over a week later still unable to move fully.

If you are interested, here’s a little picture of the shoulder muscles.


The good thing is I still got into my little headstand for my family.  Nothing can keep this yogi down!


In other news, I am teaching 6 poses this Friday in Leavenworth (come if you can – 9:30am) and am so excited to get another shot at it.  I was so nervous the first time.  Maybe it’s a room you NEVER speak in and all of a sudden you are the only one talking!  It was really fun though.

What I have really gotten the most from in this journey is deep personal friendships I have developed.  When you know the deepest parts about someone, there is a care, a love, a respect that I can’t describe except that I love these people.  I truly love them, care for them and would do anything for each any every one of them.  My husband said today love is for family, they are my family.  My yoga family.

Are you close with those around you?  Do you know the hardest struggles in their life?  It’s worth it, find out.  Make real connections and less surface connections.  It will change you, your relationships and the way you see people that you don’t know.


Drinking Koolaid – I am

Day three, most of the day was training including an Astanga class which I opted out of at least the second 1/2 (last 2/3 maybe, whatever, those poses were killing my ankle and I have kicked butt in Hatha despite any ankle related problems, I don’t feel bad even though Guru Stephanie gave me a hard time.) Astanga is the root of classes like Vinyasa but very difficult and can’t even begin to describe some of the crazy things they do. So I am just proud to have gotten to where I did. I have been leading some poses and really enjoy it. I have a ways to go for sure but I really enjoy leading postures and helping other people. I helped “teach” Astanga by describing the poses in the video. I know it wouldn’t be Stephanie approved methods but I felt like I was helpful.

And then….The movie. To start, I already love documentaries. I really do. I love learning and getting more information. My husband so far keeps asking if I drank the Koolaid, let’s just say tonight, I am full on drinking the Koolaid.

“I am” – a documentary you can find on Netflix is life changing. I can reel you in with name dropping the director – Tom Shadyac (Bruce Almighty, Ace Ventura) goes through what he went through in his life asking the tough questions. After watching – without giving too much away – I am changed. I would watch and watch and watch if I could. But mostly I want you to watch. I have been at a place in my life trying to figure out where I go from here. What my values are – what I believe. I have called it my midlife faith crisis. I have been looking for my purpose, my highest and best use if you put it in my husband’s real estate terms.

Asking those questions can be hard. But what is the alternative, you are born baby, die baby as Bikram would say. Which means basically, I believe most people live in this world where they act like they are the only ones in it. Out for #1 as they say. But for most, that isn’t working. It isn’t making most people happy to live that way. Just day to day, trying to get ahead. That isn’t what life is about.

I have always hoped that I by doing this, I will inspire someone. Hopefully someone will try something they haven’t done before. Or look at things a different way. And maybe for me in a lot of ways it is just therapeutic. Put my thoughts on paper. Get all those ideas and emotions out of my head. But in times like these, my mission becomes crystal clear and the second I start to get away from that. The second I start to think that my life is all about me, something comes in and reminds me what it is really about. This, all of it. It comes down to one controlling force in my life, Love.

I am meant to love. I have huge compassion for people that I don’t always show. I want better for your life. I want happiness for all. I want you to not be wasting your life not doing what you want to be doing. Life is so short, SO short. Unless you have faced death in some way, maybe you don’t understand that fully. But when you do, especially when you have faced it in youth, you have an immediacy that most people don’t have. I want to make an impact. I want a positive influence to radiate from you so that people catch it. I want people to say, I was going to give up. I was feeling like no one cared. But I saw you believe in me. And I do, I believe the best can be found in every single person. It’s inside you. Don’t waste it. You have something so uniquely you that someone else needs. Maybe it is your spouse. Maybe it’s your child. Or maybe, you just want to reach and touch every person you can.

I want to reach you. I want you to read this today and know it’s been building up. Share it, give it. If you haven’t found it, well – try yoga. I found something in the heat that I needed. But you don’t have to do yoga to be that positive force. You just need to be you. You are here for a reason, find it, embrace it, then do it. What are you waiting for?

What if the answer was given to us by something so simple as a song? What if it is all we need to heal the world’s sickness? Maybe it is. I will be love. untitled