Reality Bites

I had so much fun tonight painting with my sister. Distractions are awesome, until you come back to reality. 

It’s like a crushing blow to remember the pain. To feel the ache again after it lifts, even for a little bit. 

Distractions can only last so long. It’s the day to day, the late nights, the early mornings. That loneliness sets in and you realize you’re all alone. The sky is so bleak, I feel it in my bones. The days move slowly from one to the next and I wonder how I will make two more days of the wondering, the questions that plague my mind every minute. 

Yet in the end, I created something out of a blank canvas. Regardless of how it turned out, I can see the beauty. With my heavy heart and heavy hand, I have a starry night.  

Regardless of what happens, I will go on. Creating beauty out of nothing, a star in the bleakest sky. 


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BRCA 2+, Post Bilateral Mastectomy, Post Surgical Menopause, Previvor, Dedicated Yoga Student, Previvor Advocate

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